10/19/2010

Hello? Is This Thing On?

The only words I can even begin with are, Long Time No See!! God it's been a long time! A really long time, over a year kind of loooooooooooooong time. I often thought about coming back to the blogging world but thought is there time? Will anyone remember me and my story? Will I be welcomed back into the small blogging circle of far away friends I got to know so well in such a hard and trying time in my life? 
Well, as you may know, I am never good with timing... Here it is 10:47 on a weeknight and I am delving into a past love that I haven't touched in so long. Did I happen to mention I am also so not a morning person??? Don't fret! I will be reminding my self of why I am so tired tomorrow as my entrusted Blackberry friend wakes me at 5:30 am. On time as always.... 
Well, now that I am here, how can I possibly fill you in on the past 13 months of my life???? 
I think I will go back to my original first ever post idea (you should go all the way back and check it out) and start by saying... once again.... "In A Nutshell....."

Starting with the most important and then throwing the rest all in as if I were making an all about me stew... Hang on! Here goes! 



The good news :)

My son Evan Vincent is now 21 months old ( as of this past Sat)
He is the happiest little boy alive!!!!
He is still on continuous feeds through his "Mickey" feeding tube. We are up to 42 ml per hr now. 
His comprehension and vocabulary and language skills are amazingly high!
He can sign a few words on demand and on his own such as (more, thank you, please, ball and all done and down)
He can follow 1-2 step directives when asked. 
He loves his red car, his popper, his ice cream truck (basically all push toys) boats, trucks, cars (he makes the "vroom vroom" noises) He loves going on walks and hitting bumps on the sidewalk and road. 
He is a little over 18 lbs... I am thankful he has been growing- although slowly. 
He loves Sedona, our dog and tries to love a little too much on him at times....
He loves to kiss and hug, waves to everyone in his sight and loves when I sing to him and shake his bottles while I dance for him in the kitchen like a COMPLETE DORK!
He goes to PT and Speech 3x weekly. 
On a good day, he can down a jar or 2 of stage 2 baby food. (we have a hard time with stage 3 due to all the carrots or corn ingredients that a short gut diet cannot tolerate)
Still has nursing care while I am at work and during some evenings a week. (Yes, I am back at work full time since Jan 2010)
We celebrated his first Birthday- Oops! I meant to say "Bird Day" in January on his actual day, which was very special to me. We invited all of our family, friends and nurses from home health as well as our old friends from the NICU. 
We visit the NICU aka "Home Away From Home" every so often to say hello and make donations to the babies and families in the unit. 
He loves to play with his friends. Loves to be included in everything and loves to laugh!
Evan is walking and at times running now!!! 
He is getting into EVERYTHING!!! Loves my tupperware cabinet the most. 
He recently began standing on his tippy toes and tried to turn the door handle to get to his ride on red car... I told you, he loves that thing! 

There is so much more, but I just can't think straight this late at night... 


His speech is still the issue... Momma and Dadda are about the only things you can understand. 
He is still tube fed continuously and has remained on the Neocate diet. (I was hoping to go one and off every few hrs by now...)
He is a little over 18 lbs... a very slow process. AKA Failure to thrive. 
He gets the worst gas pains at times and you feel like you can't run to get the gas relief meds fast enough. 
He had his first cold a few weeks ago. Excess mucus, clear runny nose, chest congestion and cough)  (this is actually a good thing, but it is something that puts me into hyperventilation mode to just think of it)  A rising fever only means one thing for us.... Re admittance and GI issues....
Momma still has slight attachment issues that make me want to call in to work every now and then... it is so hard missing out on his therapy sessions and play time during the day!! 
And finally... the one warning given to parents of sick children... the one that has absolutely nothing to do with the child... 




Separation. Yes! I said the S word for those of you who remember how stressful yet happy life was during such a trying time, I always had the support of a caring, strong, loving husband. He is still the best daddy in the world to his little boy.  I remain a momma who needs to be reminded that all I need is a little time, encouragement,  strength  and love from the people in my life.  A momma on the mend.... 

Thanks for listening... I hope you are all doing well. I know I have a few of your Blogs to catch up on! 
 



9/17/2009

It's great to be 8 (months) !

Happy eight months (4months 3 weeks adjusted) my little bird! You amaze me everyday with your.....

Great smile
Occasional giggle when I lift you over my head
cooing (mostly in the am)
hands in the mouth
hitting toys with your hands and feet
turning side to side
grabbing your Eeyore stuffed animal with both hands
attempt to drink formula from your special spoon like bottle
baby food tasting by mouth with the spoon sideways. (bananas, apple sauce, oatmeal)
head lifting 
some vowel sound making
hand grabbing

little self!!!

I am sure there is more that you are doing, but your momma is a bit tired from your occasional....

fussing when gassy 
constant head turning when you try to keep yourself from falling asleep
one eye open when falling asleep
15 + diaper pooping
spitting up when crying
"airing out" in the bath tub whining
G-Tube leaking, middle of the night bathing

little self!!!!

I love you more then life itself and am just contemplating, updating, documenting, so please... when old enough to be reminiscing.. don't be hating! =)

9/13/2009

Happy Fall Ya'll


I promised I would keep up the blog, and there is no better time to re-kick off the blog then now. Happy Fall Ya'll!! There is no happier and calmer time of the year then now. This is my absolute favorite time of the year. The changing weather (yes, even in Florida) the colors, scents, traditions, decorations, and America's favorite past time. Go Noles!!!
There is however another reason why I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE this time of year. Evan's first Halloween and holiday at home. There is no place like home and as far as the whole NICU experience, it really was hard to celebrate holidays there. Although Valentines Day, Mother's Day, St. Patrick's Day and my Birthday are not highly ranked holidays in my eyes, they were still times of celebration and in the hospital, there was nothing worth celebrating  besides for Evan's good days. 
I think you all already know, but I am so in love with Etsy. I could shop there all day and have. Most recently I purchased some fun stuff for Evan's upcoming baptism, my sister in laws newest arrival Floyd and a few just had to have personalized things. There is very little that I like that is NOT monogrammed. Boy or not, Evan is a one of a kind and isn't the saying, you are what you wear?!? HaHa!
I ordered the cutest little candy corn fall T for Evan and this adorable little pumpkin long sleeve T. Isn't it just the cutest thing you have ever seen!? I can't wait to see him in all his fall aka monogrammed wear. 

Other new and exciting things that are happening this fall is our continuation of feeding and speech therapy. We are just now fashioning  our bibs and I have never been more excited to start the often difficult task of baby food feeding. With a baby who eats 24/7 through a tube in his stomach, this is not an easy task at all. It is beyond difficult and at times impossible, dreadful and down right depressing. We ARE trying though. Evan usually ends up throwing up most of what he "eats", but he is getting used to the idea of swallowing, food being a good thing, using our mouths and learning how to make Mommy oh so proud!
This handy dandy little bottle like device thingy is a soft feeder and is made to allow the parent (aka me) to squeeze small amounts of formula from the bottle into the soft reservoir to then place into the non mouth eating infant's (aka Evan) mouth. He doesn't seem to mind the formula being placed onto his lower gum line, however takes some time taking the formula into his mouth to swallow. 
I always told myself that I'd refuse to have my house look like a romper room once I'd have children. As you can imagine, Boppy's, Bumbo's and bottles are hard to hide among all the other baby needed stuff. I am still looking for a closet that is big enough to throw it all into at times when I begin to feel overwhelmed by my now, once promised never to have romper room of a house. No matter how organized and how many baskets for this and that I have, there is still baby and medical equipment taking over like a slowly erupting volcano. I need to remind myself that at least it is here and not in the hospital and suddenly the mass confusion of children's crap disappears. To re-cap,  I love the fall and it's yummy scents and just couldn't resist taking out the camera to show how nice the scent and glow of an apple pie candle can make messy medical equipment look. 


Can you guess what Evan is going to e for his first Haloween???? Here are some clues....
And yes... that is a pile of feathers and a glue gun. I wanted to capture the look of a more expensive costume and add it, well, lets say attempt to add it to his costume. Can you guess now what he is going to be??? Go back to some 1st posts to see if you can find one of my nicknames I gave to Evan when he was born.
His candy bag has nothing to do with his costume, but isn't it the cutest little sweet spider of a candy bag you have ever seen!? It was so cheap and at one of my favorite stores, so I had to get it for him. It won't be long before I have no say in what Evan can be for Halloween, so for now.. It's my turn!!!

8/19/2009

Happy 7 Months, Very Lucky 1



I know, I know.... Been a while but hey, I am lucky if I shower by 5pm these days. I am so happy to announce that Evan has been home for one entire month. We can't believe how fast the time goes! He is doing well (now...let's all knock on wood) He has weekly dr appts and therapy in home 2x a week. Leaves a lot to do in such little time. I look forward to getting Evan out more and was so happy to meet with my friend Bree the other day and take Evan to the mall for lunch. We only stopped in one, ok- two stores. But it was a great feeling getting to push him in the stroller. Wish I had the camera that day. Bree's son Ben was all out in the open in his stroller and even converted over into a sling at one point, while Evan was. Where was he??? You really couldn't see him. He was all covered as if it were raining inside the mall. Thank God for strollers with two covers. Every now and then, I had to bend around and peek into the miniscule hole on the side of the stroller where air flowed and where a nervous mommy can peek in. 
I will say, that was one of the proud moments I have had thus far. I was able to feel like a mom having him with me- out and about- to show off. (Well, kinda)
The 16th was party hat time again. We got a few 7 month shots. I can't wait to compare all the photos. I need to think of a way to display all the pictures of him every month to display at his 1st Birthday. Yeah, it's stil a while away, but us type A's really need to work and plan ahead. I know it drives some people i know nuts. But thats me, and I think I have god enough reason to be excited about my little bird turning one!!!
Other things that have been going on since I last blogged that I would have blogged about.... My sister in law Carrie is still prego!! Yep! Still.... Hopefully we will get to meet the little guy soon before he decides to live in there forever. I am so excited to have a nephew that will be so close in age to Evan. Now if we can only move San Francisco a little closer to Florida. Hmmm. 
My work shower was yesterday. They waited so long to have it for me and it really was more of a welcome home celebration. It was so nice to see all of my work friends and although I didn't have Evan there to show off, I did bring in his NICU journal that I made for him that contains everthing that occured and was given to him over the past 6 months. 


I have been searching for the perfect costume for this Halloween. I always called Evan my little bird, so that's the theme for this yr! Attached is a pic of the costume I found. Don't you LOVE it?? Tried to scan in his NICU to home birth announcement, but the image is too small. I will keep trying. I still have to mail out a bunch. Ahhh! Nap time is never long enough to get it all done!

7/23/2009

Beautiful, Beautiful, Beautiful, Beautiful Boy...

Since we can't be out and about, I decided to have the photo session at my house. My friend Kelly came over and took a bunch of pictures of Evan today. It was her first time meeting him and Evan's first time being treated like a little model. The photo session lasted about 45 minutes and began at 3:40 this afternoon. Evan has been asleep for most of the time since then. Being on camera really took a lot out of him!!! Here are a couple of my favorites from today. Enjoy!







7/18/2009

Happy Six Months!!

Can't believe Evan is already 6 months old! It hurts seeing how fast time has passed by. We are enjoying every minute and keeping busy. We love playing with Evan and taking him on stroller and car rides, helping him with belly time and watching him settle in to his new home sweet home. 


Not so happy...
Getting there...
Ok, happy now.

7/12/2009

Tomorrow, Tomorrow, I Love You, Tomorrow, Your Only A Day Away!

To hear Evan and I sing (sorry about that) be sure to mute my music player at the bottom of the screen. 
video

Keeping our fingers crossed about going home on Monday. I used to hate Monday mornings, now I look forward to this one more than ever!
Evan is doing great and can't wait to see his home and meet his doggy Sedona. 

Here is what Evan is doing these days:

Takes short cat naps throughout the day
Wakes up during the night for diaper changes and BP and temp checks, sleeps well most nights
Drinking up to 20 ml a day from a bottle through a fast flow nipple
Grabbing toys, hair and necklaces with his hands
Making eye contact with people, machines that beep, TV
Hiccups, sneezes, has a dry cough at times- Gets breathing treatments for now
Has continuous feedings through a G Tube that is connected to his stomach at 27 ml per hour
makes clicking noises with his mouth
Smiles now and again
Doesn't like diaper changes or bath time
Wearing a size 2-3 diaper due to heavy output
Enjoys watching his elephant mobile and his fish tank musical mobile
Holds his head up during belly time and when being held
Beginning to roll to one side when on his back